I don't know if I can / should put a trigger warning for sexual content. I'm genuine, I've just name changed for this post.
My husband (DH) and I have been together since I was 18. From the start, he was open about being bisexual, but until recently, it’s not something that's come up again. We’ve always had an incredibly strong relationship—he’s my best friend, we genuinely don’t argue, constantly doing things for each other qnd saying i love you. My family adore him too.
Recently he was feeling down and I told him to write down things and we'd go over them to make them feel better. One of the things was that he wanted to explore his body because he's always felt shame around it. Specifically, he’s asked if I’d be open to pegging him and has bought toys for it. I asked him if he thinks he might be gay and if he wanted to explore relationships with men which he denied. He said he loves me and this was just about exploring his body and he'd like me to be involved but absolutely doesn't want me to feel pressured.
Tonight, our friend made a silly joke about me being on Tinder, and DH said something along the lines of, i wouldnt mind if it made you happy.
I just have this feeling he sees me as a best friend and maybe he's gay after all? We've been together for over ten years and it's the first time he's been like this, it feels like it's come out of nowhere.