To want to quit

[sidsparrownew]

I started an HNC in August and almost every day I want to quit. I feel it takes me from being a full and present Mum to my 4 year old and 6 year old. I get so stressed and overwhelmed with juggling everything. There's so much to learn before I can consider getting in a job in the subject. The issue with quitting is that I fear I'll never use the brain in my head and I feel like I'll have wasted my talents. My children won't always be young. I'm also an older Mum (43) so retraining later and building a career feels unrealistic. But, it's Christmas, I want to make biscuits with them, do craft, winter walks, and I just don't have the time, and I hate it. My DH does help out massively so it's not that. I also think I'm a terrible student - I always have been. I wouldn't say I have ADHD but I have a lot of the symptoms, so studying is difficult. I just don't know what to do. If I quit I could get PT work as a home help, which I wouldn't mind, but college would be a closed book and deep down I feel like I'd be passing up a massive opportunity. Ugghhhh! Any advice?

Keep at it. You have a lot of working life left and you won't be studying for ever.

What are you retraining in?

Quit then .

Digital design and web development

The issue is you started when you shouldn't have, your actual want to be a full and present mum outweighs the want to be a working woman. You need to realise that the media portrayal of the super mum who also runs the world is a portrayal of fiction for many, there's only 24 hours in a day and if you want 8 of them for sleeping, 16 of them for being a full and present mum, and 16 of them for being a FT student - there's not enough hours in that day.

Is it just because it's Christmas? and when this mad 3 weeks os over you'll be able to focus more on study, or is it that you went back to study when the kids were too young thinking you could do it all?

Honestly, I wouldn’t bother
Most of it’s been outsourced for the last five years and with this increasing employers national insurance there’s some chap in India. That’s willing to do anything you can do for about the 10th of the cost.
Do a course in something that requires an actual physical human being to do it in the location that they are. Make yourself immune to AI.