I feel you op. I posted before that I will buy a house abroad and migrate like a bird seasonally (I'm half serious, still weighing it up). I didn't have the energy to type out why when I posted. I'm not a sickly person but this year has been brutal.
I had a normal standard cold it was rough I was not myself despite lemsip got a week. I thought I was better started exercising again and I got all kinds of crazy symptoms. It started as what I thought was a migraine then nose bleeds. My eye on one side hurt so bad I taped over it to keep it closed the other I was okay. I couldn't get words out straight from pain. I thought I was dying. Two days no improvement I am going. Downhill. I book GP appointment she tells me I have a very nasty virus and runs some tests. Room is spinning the whole time. Next day all my glands in my neck come up. Not a few like my entire lymphatic system swells. I can't stay awake. I can't stand up. I can't brush my teeth. I can't eat. I can't talk. Results back I've got mono. Epstien Barr virus, most people get it as teenagers or young adults but my old ass must have never been exposed, most people are immune or show low/few symptoms particularly if exposed as a child. I curse my luck but also so relieved it's not lymphoma as so unwell and so much bleeding that I thought I had cancer.
Slowly recover after a week I'm bed which was a blur of painkillers and throat spray. Still knackered. Been told I can't drink wine at Christmas as the virus has attacked my liver. I'm tired take a few weeks off. I don't drink much anyway but it's just the timing I like a few Bailey's and wine around christmas.
I have to turn down a ton of social events as I'm still not well enough to go and can't drink anyway. Ate like a horse all day, I suppose maybe my body needed the energy after not being well but regret it now. Husband has come down with a standard cold, not what I had so I'll have that neck week no doubt as my immune system is already in the gutter.
My period just started.
I'm tired of the hard work just maintaining my body which seems to always be doing something I am displeased about. Not just health wise. Feeling down on myself as I have been too unwell to do my upkeep grooming face stuff, food spa, shave and exfoliate all over, haven't even cut my toenails. I would love to be well enough to do yoga, which alongside feeling clean and presentable, help me stay sane.
I have a cosy house and I'm grateful for everything I have. But I'm not into the seasonal illness, the rain, the depressing prices of my electric bill. I want to walk my dog but there's no way we are going out in this. Let alone while I'm so sick.
Sorry op, not trying to take away from yours just having a rant as well as it feels so unbelievably shitty. I lived abroad for a couple of years and it was never like this at all. It just wasn't.
Edit. I know this is hard to read lol 😞