I started a new job last week and I really don't like it. I have experienced new job nerves before, and I know this is more than that. It doesn't seem like a good fit and the morning dread before work started on day 2.
The team seem bitchy. It feels really lonely and unwelcoming there. My line manager is very senior (multiple levels above me) and they leave me on read and ignore my messages because they're too busy. The work is okay (albeit dull) and similar to what I've done in the past, but there is a lot of micromanagement going on. The only plus is that it's good money.
My notice period in my probationary period is 2 weeks. I want to leave, but I don't know how. I am really bad at being a people pleaser and I know if I asked for a call with my manager I would lose my nerve and not be able to assert myself. I feel embarrassed and guilty as I have had new IT equipment provided for me that will all need returning. I know they took me on board with plans for 2025 changes. I know recruiting is expensive and time-consuming. I just feel awful about the whole thing but I know I'll never be happy there, and I have spent way too long in other jobs letting myself be miserable. I have enough savings to tide me over.