Family dynamics

[GreatAnt]

Just wondered how other people feel.

F52.I married late 30s , husband didn't want any children and I was never really maternal so we never tried for a family.

I have 2 siblings not close to them , one who has early teen children who I am close to. My elderly mother is still alive.

I have started to get jealous if I am not involved or kept in the loop, feeling excluded.

I've just realised that I still see them as my immediate famiand and expect to be involved whereas if I had children, grandchildren they by nateral transition would now be my immediate family and I
probably wouldn't be as bothered by others.

I have a close circle of core friends and a close relationship with my husband so always seem to be out which attracts barbed comments from my siblings, making me feel judged but that's another story.
I'm just curious if other childless people feel similar and that the lines of family are a bit blurred.

I’m the only one of my siblings to have had a child (at almost 40) , parents still alive and well, and I certainly haven’t noticed any shift in ‘connection’ to my parents and siblings since having DS. One of my childfree siblings is far closer to our parents than I am (though I still see them twice weekly), one is very low-contact, and one lives at a distance, so doesn’t see much of them, though checks in by phone. I also have good friends and go out a lot.