Long story short, my company has been going through a period of change this year. In March we all got an email saying we were affected in March, not affected then but would be in September, or not at all. I was told September. Well the September deadline got moved to October, which then got moved to November and apparently today is the day. Sometime today I’ll get an email saying if my job is changing or if they’re getting rid of it completely. That’s all the formation they’re giving us today. Then next week, they’ll give more information about how it’ll change (if it’s changing) or which jobs I can apply for/a redundancy package (if the job is gone). I’m literally shaking with fear. We are already living paycheck to paycheck. Without my income we will lose the house. I know that there might be other options, and if I’m fired then there’ll be redundancy, but I’m so scared. This is the only place I’ve ever worked. Started straight out of uni, I’ve never even done a job interview. I’ve been loyal and worked hard and feel so let down by the entire thing.
I’ve been looking for other jobs for months, but nothing will fit around the children like this does. I’ve stayed out of loyalty and because I love my job and now I’m feeling stupid because they’ve treated me so badly.
I don’t even know when they’re going to tell me. Just some time today. I just need to get everyone out to school and work and then I can sit and wallow and refresh my emails until something happens. I’m so scared