I am seeing my little brother play in a concert this evening. This involves taking my youngest child who is Autistic (the older ones can stay at home. They are teens and can't look after the youngest one as he needs help with toileting etc so i can never get a babysitter for him either).
We have to get a train at rush hour into the city which I am not looking forward to.
My brother has got us aisle seats and my autistic child loves orchestras so that part isn't the worry.
The worry is me! I have toilet urgency anxiety and am so worried that I will need the loo. The event is quite long but there is an interval. If I did need the loo during the concert I would have to take my son with me and disrupt him.
I am so conflicted as to what I should do. It's important to my brother (and my child) that we go but I couldn't sleep last night due to anxiety about this. It makes me so sad as I used to be adventurous and travel all over.
AIBU to just make an excuse and not go or should I just go and try my best to enjoy it?