I’m fully expecting to be told I am, just because I have BPD and although I’m working on myself through therapy, I do tend to overreact/become emotional to things other people wouldn’t probably bat an eyelid over. Please be gentle with me.
I went to a colleague’s wedding reception and stupidly drank more than I should have (I’m talking, I can’t remember hardly any of the night, I’m ashamed to say). When I next went into work, I had my head down, tried to blend into the background in case I had embarrassed myself. One colleague mentioned how drunk I got and said I was telling everyone how much I love them and another said I was a ‘good drunk’ as I was fun and kept wanting to tell everyone how brilliant they are etc etc. Another messaged to say it was lovely seeing me outside of work and how I have a kind soul. All of this made me take a huge sigh of relief, however, there’s a photo on one colleague’s Facebook page that has annoyed/upset me.
I’m not close with this person, but noticed she was on Facebook so I was about to add her. I looked on her page and there’s a photo of her, laughing, and holding her handbag up to my chest (as if to stop me from getting to someone) and this ‘someone’ is another colleague looking annoyed at/with me. There’s another colleague stood containing her laughter. I don’t know what is happening (the photo only shows me standing there and it’s the back of my head) but it looks as if I’m arguing with this other colleague, the other two ladies are finding it funny, and one of them are holding their bag up to me ‘to stop me going for’ the other colleague. This is ridiculous because it looks like only a conversation is being had, and I’m not sure if this is just done in jest, as I say, the two of them are laughing. I know it’s my own fault for not knowing what’s going on here - I only socially drink and never ever go out these days (last time I drank before this point, was a year prior). I also get nervous about going out, so I drink to give myself a confidence boost and have obviously gone overboard with it. I won’t be going out with work any more, so have learnt from it. Far better to drink with people I can be comfortable around and have no backlash from doing so. I also can pace myself when I’m around people I feel comfortable with.
The thing that annoys me, is someone (no idea who) has taken a photo of this encounter and the woman who held her bag up at me, has posted it. I’m in none of the ‘nice’ photos from the night, where she’s standing hugging everyone else, but she’s posted this one of me, clearly her and others have made fun of me at some point (at the very least, her and whoever took and sent the pic to her) so I’m very upset about it.
AIBU to be upset? Is it a case of ‘well you got that drunk, so you get what you get!’
Would you just forget it and go about your life? I don’t know what to do about it - I don’t have counselling until Thursday and I usually talk through these things with my therapist but it’s Monday and I’m stewing (which usually means I end up becoming very depressed and/or cutting people out).