I've had an awful day. My partner has recently had surgery, so I'm looking after two children (😅).
I had to desperately get petrol after work before picking up my DC from nursery. I got stuck in traffic and was going to be late, after having two petrol stations closed.
I did manage to get to the nursery in time, but my DC refused to get in the car seat, screaming, shouting, sobbing, resisting. Cars going past and honking all the time. I was at the end of my tether and yelled at him, in the street. A few people stopped and looked. I felt so embarrassed and awful for him.
Bed time was no better. He was pushing my buttons, he kept saying DADA CUDDLE and I even said "dada doesn't want to hug you." He shut up then and looked really sad.
I feel awful, I try so much not to shout as I grew up with shouting. I love him more than anything, of course. But I can't help but feel I've failed him.