I have not had a best friend since I was about 6. I have colleagues, neighbours, sisters, daughters, a husband, a dog and some people I would call friends so not usually lonely at all. During lockdown I found a couple of old schoolfriends online and we started reminiscing about the good old days. Once we could we arranged to meet up and 3 of us became close. We took it in turns to go to each others houses and to go out for meals and days out. I feel a bit stupid saying this but I felt really happy to have such good friends, one of them gave me a photo of the three of us at an event which always makes me smile when I look at it. One of them is going through a bad breakup with her husband, which she speaks about with us both when we meet. Last week I found out she has been invited to the other friend's house because she is sad. I just feel so left out and sad myself now and feel a bit annoyed with myself for thinking I was a close friend when obviously I wasn't. We are all supposed to be going to Turkey next summer for 5 days but I am feeling like the 6 year old who wants to say that I'm not going now (but I was looking forward to it). I know people can invite who they want to what they want but I feel so left out. Is this really just what friends do?