AIBU to ask if any of you realised you were gay or bisexual as an adult and, if so, how you found the process and what made you figure it out?
I'm 30, and always just presumed I was straight. I have never, for even one second, contemplated that I was anything but 100% straight. Never put any thought into to it, it was just the default. However, lately I have been questioning my sexuality. It started with seeing a lesbian couple on a TV show and something just clicked. I think I have been so in denial, I don't know how I have managed to hide this part of myself from myself for so long?
I feel like I have to 'think' my way into being attracted to men. I have no male celebrity crushes. I only seem to fancy men once I know their personalities and it's more about how they make me feel - cared for, listened to, etc. On the other hand I could easily list 10 female celebrity crushes - I thought it was normal to have 'girl crushes' and would tell myself I just thought they were pretty and I wanted to look/be like them.
None of this is freaking me out. I would have thought it would have sent me spiralling but, I actually just feel relieved and excited, knowing I don't 'need' to be with men and that's a whole different life I could have that I never even thought of as an option.