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What is going on - am I overthinking

17 replies

cluesinthename · 02/11/2024 14:03

will try to make this long story short

me and dh been married better part of 10 years
sex life was great pre- marriage
slowly declined over time.
in covid our sex life got worse. He wasn’t interested often enough for my libido.
got even worse when we had kids (how we got pregnant as much as we did I don’t know-also suffered losses)
in heavily pregnant now and he doesn’t find me having a bump attractive (I can live w this)

anyway I caught him “giving himself one” to p#rn a few years ago and was devastated because I was in the house, I would’ve happily given him whatever he needed. But instead he’s lying in bed having a go.
i don’t particularly like the idea of p#rn especially when I’m there ready to go lol.

anyway, I know he masturbates now and then esp when pregnancy gets in the way / having kids around. But he says he just does it in the shower usually.

I caught him watching it again! I’m not overly upset but I am peed off that we’ve had ample opportunity for to help - kids asleep, or at childcare etc.
I wasn’t home but we have cameras and I just so happened to click on and saw i
himnin action. To which I alerted him and I deleted the footage / told him to turn them off

I have a real issue with him and feeling generally unloved recently. I am a much more sexual person and need more intimacy. He claims not to be. Pre marriage we would do it at every opportunity.

anyway, aibu to be a little upset ?
or should I just get over it.
we haven’t spoken about it but I don’t know whether to approach as a joke situation or a serious - lets talk because my needs aren’t being fulfilled

I don’t want SEX right now. It might kickstart labour, but I wanna love him and feel loved. This doesn’t make me feel great.
I’m an attractive woman, never had any issues with previous partners and just don’t get it.

advice welcome and you can be critical… just be kind

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MauveCritic · 02/11/2024 14:24

Probably not the most popular view, but I hate porn. It ruined my husband's life. I think that if he is replacing porn instead of interacting with you, you are going to have to deal with it eventually. Changing a relationship takes two to change, so hopefully, he is up for it. Currently, he is disregarding your needs and getting his needs sorted. It's not what I'd call a great husband.

Stormyweatheroutthere · 02/11/2024 14:29

I caught dh out when I was just home from having our dc. . Tbh our relationship never recovered and dc is 10..

cluesinthename · 02/11/2024 14:31

Stormyweatheroutthere · 02/11/2024 14:29

I caught dh out when I was just home from having our dc. . Tbh our relationship never recovered and dc is 10..

sorry, this is slightly confusing, caught him masturbating or worse?!

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cluesinthename · 02/11/2024 14:32

MauveCritic · 02/11/2024 14:24

Probably not the most popular view, but I hate porn. It ruined my husband's life. I think that if he is replacing porn instead of interacting with you, you are going to have to deal with it eventually. Changing a relationship takes two to change, so hopefully, he is up for it. Currently, he is disregarding your needs and getting his needs sorted. It's not what I'd call a great husband.

I appreciate you think your opinion may not be popular- but I’m with you. I don’t like it at all either.

thanks for the advice. Sound.

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IcyLilacZebra · 02/11/2024 14:34

I don't agree with him doing it to porn and wouldn't be happy if my dh did which he doesn't but just mentioning that he's got you and shouldn't be needing that instead of having actual human affection I think it's disrespectful that he feels the need to do that I couldn't live with that only you can decide on how to deal with it I think if it was me I would hands down sit and tell him how it makes you feel and you don't think it's acceptable and see where the conversation goes

cluesinthename · 02/11/2024 16:54

Any other opinions on the matter?

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SallyWD · 02/11/2024 17:09

I think the problem is he's not showing you enough love or affection so you're feeling unloved. The fact that he occasionally masturbates and watches worn is a non-issue, in my opinion. I know others will disagree. I don't think it's anything to be devastated about (unless he's actually a porn addict).
Could it be related to not wanting to have sex when you're pregnant?

AutumnLeaves24 · 02/11/2024 17:13

cluesinthename · 02/11/2024 16:54

Any other opinions on the matter?

Any other opinions on your sex life?

why do you have cameras in your bedroom?

what is the relevance of not having issues with ex partners 10 plus years ago pre pregnant & as a child free person?

he doesn't need your permission to masturbate!

If you're not feeling loved, why are you having another baby with him??

Hankunamatata · 02/11/2024 18:15

You said his sex drive decline during covid? Was there a reason - work stress etc.

Stormyweatheroutthere · 02/11/2024 18:18

Caught him wanking to some celebrity nudes at first. Then he admitted sloping off to the bathroom every night for a while... While I was juggling dc and a prem newborn. I have never regained my respect for him or valued our relationship as much. We def don't function properly as a couple nowadays..

Barrenfieldoffucks · 02/11/2024 18:21

He does have a sex drive and a libido, just not for sex with you.

cluesinthename · 02/11/2024 19:20

Stormyweatheroutthere · 02/11/2024 18:18

Caught him wanking to some celebrity nudes at first. Then he admitted sloping off to the bathroom every night for a while... While I was juggling dc and a prem newborn. I have never regained my respect for him or valued our relationship as much. We def don't function properly as a couple nowadays..

Yikes. I’m so sorry!

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cluesinthename · 02/11/2024 19:21

Hankunamatata · 02/11/2024 18:15

You said his sex drive decline during covid? Was there a reason - work stress etc.

No he just doesn’t want it as often as I do!
even went and got checked out at the docs in case something underlying

i do think stress might play a part but he wouldn’t admit it

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cluesinthename · 03/11/2024 17:37

I haven’t reacted to it.
he hasn’t mentioned it either.
😂

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indigo277 · 03/11/2024 17:49

You’re absolutely not being unreasonable to feel hurt and upset. It sounds like there’s a real difference in intimacy needs between you two, and that’s a valid issue, especially in a long-term relationship. It’s completely natural to feel frustrated and even lonely if he’s turning to porn instead of connecting with you—especially when you’re there, open, and ready to be with him.

Let yourself feel those emotions; your disappointment or even feeling a bit rejected is totally normal. It sounds like intimacy is really important to you, not just for the physical connection but as a way to feel close and valued by him. Those needs are absolutely okay, and you don’t need to brush them off or “just get over it.”

If you feel ready, it might help to have a calm, open conversation. When the time’s right, let him know how much you miss the closeness you used to share and how important that intimacy is for you. You could tell him that seeing him turn to porn makes you feel sidelined, especially when you’d be more than happy to connect with him. Focusing on your feelings, like saying “I miss feeling close to you” instead of framing it as what he’s doing wrong, might make it easier for him to understand where you’re coming from. Sometimes guys don’t realize how these things come across.

It could also help to see if you can find a middle ground. Sex drives and frequency can change with life events (kids, pregnancy, etc.), but that doesn’t mean either of you has to go without feeling fulfilled. You might ask if he’d be open to meeting somewhere in the middle. Maybe he needs solo time for his own reasons, but he’d also be willing to make more intentional time for you. You could try planning around the kids’ schedules or making time for smaller gestures of intimacy if full-on sex isn’t always possible.

If he’s comfortable, inviting him to share why he’s been choosing solo time without making him feel judged might make a big difference. There could be reasons he hasn’t talked about, like stress, changes in his own libido, or feeling insecure. Letting him know he can open up about this without feeling pressure might help him feel more at ease.

Another idea could be finding small ways to rebuild intimacy that aren’t focused on sex. Regular date nights or quality time together without distractions can go a long way toward rebuilding that connection, and sometimes that can make the intimacy side fall back into place more naturally.

If this feels tricky to work through on your own, there’s absolutely no shame in reaching out for extra support from a couples’ therapist. Sometimes having a safe space to talk things out helps both people feel heard, and a professional can help guide those conversations.

Overall, remember that this is a really common issue in long-term relationships, especially with big changes like kids, stress, and the everyday demands of life. You’re not alone, and many couples work through this kind of thing and come out even stronger. You’re not being unreasonable, and it’s worth talking it through if this is something you want to nurture long-term. With a little openness, honesty, and patience, there’s a good chance you both can find a way back to a place where you’re both feeling happy and fulfilled.

cluesinthename · 04/11/2024 07:06

@indigo277 thank you so much
everything you’ve said and suggested is so helpful and makes me feel better. Think it gives a clear poa too.

we have a scheduled date night soon so if it feels right I might try and have the conversation then.
I really think there’s some laziness on his part in this too, I know he’s probably exhausted running around a child and a pregnant wife too. But you’re right the conversation needs to be had.

thanks again.

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indigo277 · 04/11/2024 18:06

No problem at all. Wishing you all the best xx

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