I no longer trust my partner and i haven't been myself around him for a long time. Years ago he had nudes of his ex in his email and I saw them. When I said something to him about it he basically laughed in my face saying "I don't know why you're upset I don't even use this email". I never really got over that. When he saw how upset I was about it he started talking about how much he wanted to marry me. It's been years now and every time I hear him talk about marriage/ring I no longer get excited because I've heard it at least 50 times.
Since being with him I've changed the way I dressed(because he was uncomfortable with the way I dressed), I've changed the way I interact with people, I've stopped doing my makeup, getting dressed up etc. We don't go out on dates unless I ask. I work from home so I'm not out much. I've told him since being in this relationship I feel like an old lady.
He will stay out for hours and I won't hear from him until the next day. In arguments he will bring up how many women hit on him at work. He has given his personal information to a woman at work. The same woman he talks about damn near everyday. When I bring up things that make me uncomfortable he gets upset. Like veryyy upset and I don't understand why, but because of this I longer being up anything anymore.
I've stopped letting him know when I'm uncomfortable and I know it's not healthy but I just get quiet. Our anniversary is in a couple days and I don't even know what to say to him. I want to speak about what's on my mind but I also do not feel like arguing. I'm not sleeping well anymore. I'm always having dreams that he's cheating and the last time I told him about my dreams he asked me"what did you do to make me cheat".
Im only 26 I love him but I don't want to be in a relationship that's makes me this uncomfortable.