So, for a while now I’ve considered leaving my role.
This all began when my previous head of dept left the school. He was amazing. I genuinely mean that. He held us together. He was my shoulder to cry on when my day was shit, he supported me through any parent complaint (sometimes I wouldn’t get as much support as I hoped) but on the whole. He was great. He was a fantastic example of how to lead a team.
Then, we were appointed a new hod. And they are crap. They believe they are in the right at all times, they want everything their way, if they are in a bad mood. It’s very obvious. I feel there’s not an ounce of appreciation for the work I do for the team (and it’s a lot) I create schemes, do MT plans, create a multitude of resources, mentor, lead on initiatives, create fantastic initiatives to get students engaged in our subject, achieved the highest pass rate and highest percentage of g 6-9s in the last two years. You name it. I’ll do it. Anything asked of me I’ll happily do (maybe that’s where I go wrong.)
However, two terms have gone by and SLT have given gifts to certain staff and I’ve been missed. I would be okay with it if I did the bare minimum. But I do so so much. I genuinely will go above and beyond. It seems as though I’m overlooked, it’s actually hurtful seeing gifts on desks and being missed. It’s like I feel I have to push harder to be noticed. But I can’t do anymore.
I know I’m just a number. But I feel really upset and hurt that I get missed out. I just don’t know what I’ve done wrong:( I had recently applied to new jobs aswell and previously my manager said he’d be devastated if I left and that he knew at some point he’d be seeing a reference request on the table. Now when I am applying and have been shortlisted he was mega arsey about the whole thing.
Also I work in education so I have to do the whole process of mentioning roles before I actually do it.