So this year has been a real sh*tter.
I had emergency surgery in feb which turned out to be a rare cancer which had been growing for 6 years. And I had been having lots of problems for them 6 years but was palmed off with anxiety.
I'm now being monitored every 3 months as I'm high risk for developing another rare cancer where your abdomen fills with mucin and clings to your organs.
After my surgery in feb I developed a lump in my neck. It's deviated my windpipe. It's difficult to breathe and I get out of breath easily. It has malignant characteristics so I'm having that removed in the next month just waiting for a date.
My 5 year old is having 10 teeth removed in 3 weeks because even though we have done everything and I mean everything to look after them, only allowed sweets / chocolate on weekends, brushing twice a day, flossing she has cavities so that's a sh*tter.
And I'm just at the end. Years ago I use to self harm when I would get overwhelmed and then angry.
And then feelings are coming back. Iv not acted on the thoughts but they are there. And it's making me a miserable human being.
I want to shut myself off from the world but I can't as I home school my daughter. I'm exhausted all the tome because of my health.
Anyway Iv diverted. Does anyone think hypnosis would be good to help my trail of thought so I don't go back into a downward spiral and completely unravel?