I don’t know why but recently I dread work so much and really hate going. I was off on annual leave last week and could cry that I have to go back to work tomorrow. I’m forever day dreaming of a lottery win and how my life would be if I didn’t have to work. I have to pretend to care about my job and all the nonsense there when I just don’t. I just want to be at home. I know very few people enjoy work and those that do are very lucky but this is getting beyond just work blues. I have been at the same place for over 10 years and due to long service I earn a good wage for what I do so changing jobs wouldn’t be easy without a pay cut that I can’t really afford.
I am 43. I have gained 2 stone in 6 months and can’t stop comfort eating. I just don’t know how to escape this rut. The thought of 20+ more years at work is something I can’t bare to think about.