I'm such an idiot
I don't drink much but every few months I meet up with a friend and we go for drinks.. well i always seem to get far too drunk and turn into a complete idiot.
I used to get awful 'beer fear'/hangxiety then it seemed to be better but recently it's been awful again
I'm now at the point where I've decided it's probably best if I give up alcohol completely.. I'm not sure how this will work in terms of certain social situations yet but tbh right now i never want to leave the house anyway.
So not drinking again is the long term plan.
However just now I need advice for the short term please..
I went out on a night out in Saturday, was fun to start with then i got absolutely hammered and oh i am so embarrassed. An ex of mine turned up with their current girlfriend and i was a total idiot. Talking shit, utter nonsense, I just have images of me running around and being a knob. God knows half of what i was saying but the shame i feel.
I feel utterly depressed, like a black cloud is over me. Can barely eat or sleep and i keep feeling sick at the flashbacks.
Ok I didn't do anything dangerous or illegal or anything, i just had a night out and got too drunk so why do I feel so so so guilty and anxious?
Please help me to feel better, I'm really struggling and feel so stupid