Petrified help

[Cherryblossom200]

Hi all,

Firstly to explain in a solo mum, no father in the picture to a beautiful little girl who is 9.

I own my house and until recently had a full time job. I was made redundant last week, and currently negotiating my compensation pay,

About 20 years ago I had breast implants, I'm 49. Over the past couple of years I've had back pain and breast pain. I buried my head in the sand as it was on and off pain.

A week ago I noticed one of my breast was bigger than the other and hard at the top. I went to my GP today who has fast tracked me for a mammogram. It's a 2 week cancer fast track, it has to be done quickly. Not because I necessarily have cancer as it might just be my implant needs to be taken out.

But I'm going to worst case scenario, literally I think I'm going to die.

My sister and her husband would look after my daughter but it breaks my heart.

I now have a long wait until I find out and it's excruciating.

No idea how I will last that long 😢

dont Go worst case scenario though, you literally have no information at the moment. One step at a time, submerge yourself in your child and the little things that pick you up. One foot in front of the other. You can do this xxxxx

On the positive side, you're getting the quickest action.

Given your implants are 20 years old, it's likely to be them. Have you had them replaced in that time?

The waiting is the worst because your head goes to all sorts of places. I hope you get your appointment sooner rather than later

No I've not had my implants replaced in that time so they are old!

I'm hoping it's just that and will then get them replaced

But they have to look at all options to rule everything out x

Came to say this. Hard as it is, try not to catastrophize, you just don't know enough yet.

I'm sorry about your redundancy too!

Have you got family nearby or someone IRL to talk to?

I was sent for a biopsy which turned out to be nothing. They are very cautious about breast changes. It's very likely you just need to have your implants removed. Even if it is cancer, people survive breast cancer. Try not to catastrophise, I know it's easier said than done because I freaked out too for no reason at all. Wishing you good health and as much peace as possible while you wait. xx

The other night I couldn't sleep because I was stressed and I was listening to a podcast that included a meditation segment that really relaxed me for days afterwards. It's breathing into your heart and it took me out of my head and thoughts and into my body where the crazy circling thoughts didn't exist. The meditation is here, I thought I'd share in case you feel it's something that will help you. Scroll right down to the Heart Alignment Meditation bit, it's 8 minutes. https://mysolluna.com/fiveheartsbook/

Thank you, but I've tried everything going to try and relax but nothing at all works. The only thing that helps is talking to people. My poor friends and family have me on the phone non stop 😢

Honestly op, when I was going through all the tests for cancer I threw myself into practical mode.

I found comfort in making my will, funeral plan, writing letters, sorting out what would happen with my dc, making sure all the paperwork was together and accessible etc.

Some people prefer to put things out of their mind, but I'm someone who prepares for the worst and hopes for the best.

You have done as much as you can with getting the help you need, you're on the path to finding out what's wrong. And I'm sure you will be absolutely fine. It might help you a bit to just get into the practicalities of everything, it certainly made me feel like I'm doing something constructive while I waited.

All the best op 💐

One of your implants may be leaking.

How are you feeling @Cherryblossom200 ?

I'm ok thanks. My family and friends are being amazing. So I'm completely supported.

My appointment is on Monday 🙏

Having looked online and also submitted photos to a plastic surgery forum where there are real surgeons all of them have said it very much looks like capsular contraction. The implants are really old. I'm hoping it's just this, but you never know 😟

I went to the GP on Friday for breast pain, she found nothing on examination. I was seen today at the breast clinic at the hospital (so very quickly). My GP explained that the 2 week rule applies to everyone and the word cancer will be used in correspondence but it doesn't mean for a moment she thinks I have cancer, this is just their protocols for breast related issues and she wanted to play it cautiously due to family history. The breast clinic also found nothing but sending me for a mammogram just for peace of mind really, I didn't ask them too but very happy that they are. This is the same procedure for everyone so try not to worry.

Thank you. I keep on swinging from feeling ok to the depths of despair x

I'm having my mammogram tomorrow through my private healthcare I couldn't wait until Monday. I literally am going slowly insane having to wait.

Logic tells me it's my implant as it's rocks hard and old. But then I'm also going down the worst case scenario that I leave my child without a parent 😢

Tonight it going to awful. I'm sat downstairs with a glass of wine and won't get a wink of sleep.

I hope it went OK today x

How did you get on? Hope you are ok.

Ah thanks everybody, I'm home and all fine 😊 My breast implant has ruptured so I need them taken out which I'm fine about.

I thought I was going to collapse under the anxiety when I walked in! To say I'm relieved is an understatement.

Thanks everyone for your support xx

Oh that's brilliant news! I'm so glad it won't be a worry over the weekend for you too.

How long will the wait for the surgery be? Will you get them replaced?

I'm not sure how long it'll take, I'm undecided if I'll get them replaced. I may go natural now. I was in my twenties and flat as a pancake, they were a fab investment and gave me so much confidence. Now I'm not sure if I need them, I'm happy within my own skin which I think comes with age 😊 x

Good for you. Things definitely change when you hit your 40s and you get a new found confidence

Brilliant news - relieved for you. Have a lovely Friday night and sleep well tonight!

Thank you ☺️

Hello. Having similar symptoms and suspect is due to implant rupturing. Did you get the implants removed in the NHS? Would they remove the excess skin?