I don’t think I was ND…

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Cheepcheepcheep · 21/09/2024 22:33

Trying to phrase this appropriately

I’m on the tube home and I can see a girl stimming. I offered her my headphones (no sound) and she said ‘thank you, I can’t focus without quiet’

I’ve never considered myself ND but it’s given me a bit of a moment. I can’t take public transport without them to block out noise.

I have a lot of the stereotypes - I’m obsessed with facts, mostly to do with trains and roads and infrastructure. I know it sounds a bit mad but I hate being over stimulated and I immediately got that girl. Do I need to look into this? Is it ok at 35 just to be a bit odd?

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Cheepcheepcheep · 22/09/2024 22:48

Willyoushutthefrontdoor · 22/09/2024 22:09

I'm 51 and after a day out in February with an autistic best friend ive known for 40+ years, she mentioned that she thinks I should finally see a doctor about ASD. The things she has always noticed were always my normal. But I guess they aren't actually the norm so to speak. I can hold a job down and have raised 3 kids...3 kids that agreed with said friend and also told me to go to the GP. And it has gotten worse when meno started. My main problem is the sounds other people don't even notice. But the counting. The routines. Food textures and flavour issues. Rituals. Fixations on hobbies. Decorating got out of control. I painted the whole room 2 different colours in 1 day and my son was like, mother please! I have lost a job due to my lack of concentration and processing of information. I will never need medication I feel and I don't need any PIP or help. I have great family and friends and a fantastic work manager. But I went to the GP after filling in some sheets she scored and she said, as a mother of an autistic child herself, that she recognises some traits but couldn't say for sure so referred me to psych UK. Application is in and I await their email for assessment. For me it's just the knowing. I'm me. I've always been me. And I feel good about it all whatever the outcome.

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I love that final line. Thank you.

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