Am I in denial?

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After a couple of weeks of off and on breast pain I felt a possible lump. I was already booked in for general blood tests for fatigue and have other mystery symptoms.

I sent in an e message to my GP, within half an hour a receptionist phoned and an hour later I saw a doctor. I was immediately referred for 2 wk appointment and clinic rang next day to book me in. I feel a bit spaced out. It doesn't seem quite real. (BTW I am incredibly grateful for GP prompt response but also discombobulated iyswim).

The appointment is in a few days. I only told DH it's 'screening' (true but not the whole truth) as I don't want him to worry a lot.

Considering my symptoms I could be googling madly and getting very anxious. I have moments of real fear but I'm almost pretending to myself it's not happening. I have a disabled child. I am incredibly tired.

AIBU?

I think not thinking about it until you know more from the tests is a very good plan to be honest, not denial at all. I hope the tests show something harmless

@ChoccieCornflake thank you

No worries! Try to get some rest too.

Oh OP that's a hard thing to go through. I think you are 100% right NOT to be Googling or worrying too much. We all know what this could be, but equally there are other things it could be. Googling would give you a bigger range of possibilities and a bigger range of treatments, but even if you spent this times learning all you could about all the options, you couldn't make any decisions until you actually know what it is.

Any lump in a breast gets treated like its cancer until its proved not to be. Better to fast track 10 people who are fine than get to one person too late is the idea of it.

I had a rather large lump a year ago. I panicked. Really panicked. It was a cyst. They drained and all was ok. The 2ww is v stressful. You’ll be fine I am sure.

Very true @stichguru I have started some easy knitting which will help with the likely hanging about.

I think you're much better off not googling madly, it's only going to make you worry! It's good that your GP is getting you checked, I hope you can distract yourself with knitting or other hobbies until then. And get some rest if you can! Wishing you a good outcome 💐