To wonder how i know im gay

[rainbowprincesschapell]

As a child i would look through the grattan catalogue and my mind would obsess over the women on the underwear pages 🙁 then we would go to butlins and i would obsess over the ladies dancing. i had early experiences with women but the married. For 22 years. Left. happy alone.

Had many times where i've had crush and obsession with women but find cognitive dissonance tricky.

Now i am obsessing about women again.

What is bothering me is the fact at age 14 i qas pouring over women in magazines like a boy would and i do not get why

Are you attracted to your husband/any men also?
If so you're bisexual.
What makes you think gay?

Sounds like you were brought up in an era when gay was not acceptable in the main stream of life.

well being same sex attracted is normal. So maybe explore that

Is anyone attracted to men though other than them being a Father or provider?

Not sure what you mean. That's not really attraction.
It can feel different the attraction bisexual people feel towards men and towards women.
Some of that culture has to do with that as we are all brought up to objectify women.
Have you ever been attracted to your husband/ a man?

Yes OP many women find men very physically attractive. I think the fact that you've never found a man attractive but you do find women attractive, means you're gay.

Screwed up post. Trying again.

Erm...yes? When I look at my DP (a man I very definitely fancy) I can't think of anything I want to do more than touch every bit of him. I want to kiss him and the thought of sex with him turns me on incredibly. I very very much am attracted to him!

Yes, you can like the idea of them running their hands over you.

I think I know what you mean.
I can appreciate that some men are attractive, but it struck me (after 20+ years marriage) that I don’t find men sexually attractive.
Compulsory heterosexuality means plenty of us go through the motions of marriage etc because that’s the option we’re brought up with and many of us don’t question the status quo until later on in life.

Well I am a woman and I feel quite sure I’m not gay although I’ve never been with a woman or wanted to, not even remotely. And I definitely found the women’s pages in catalogues way more interesting / a turn on than the men’s pages. Boobs basically - they are sexy to me.
Maybe I want to BE that woman. Don’t know. And once I heard that the sex you are most attracted to is the one you’d pay most attention to on the beach. Well again, that would be women for me.

Yes! Absolutely.
I never have that butterflies in stomach, wanting to be near them feeling about women, only men. When I see a picture of a beautiful actress (for example) I might think she is beautiful or sexy but it’s either a purely aesthetic appreciation or a sort of jealousy - I’d like to look like that. The attraction I feel for a man feels completely different - it’s much more of a magnetic feeling if that makes sense.
I did think I might be gay when I was a young teenager and hadn’t figured out the difference yet.

I find women very physically attractive, my attraction to men has to come from deeper as I don't particularly find their bodies for to look at.

Easy: do you get that "groin-level reaction?" You know what I mean--do you get hot looking at women, thinking about kissing them? If so, you are probably gay. What about with men? if so, you are probably straight. Both? Probably bi. If not re: women, you are just dreaming of having a wonderful, deep, best-friendship.

Oh dear When i watched Children's hour movie at a young age I thought. That's what I am
Better shut up then
So I did
children's hour movie - Google Search