Life is BLEAK future is BLEACK

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i cant get out of the rut of depression in my circumstances. Feeling like I will forever struggle with the cost of living, obstacles due to issues in the UK, everytime I seem close to sorting one issue out, another one comes.
It is continuous stress, I cannot catch a break.
At this point, I do not even have the basics, because of money issues. It has made me so angry toward everyone who I see doing well.
That is so far from my life, I come from a family with money, it is so heartbreaking to know I have failed my children and watching my quality of life get progressively worse, along with my mental health while working the hardest I have ever worked in my life.
I know its hard with young children, and in todays climate BUT how will it get better?

Unfortunately in my experience life seems to be a series of peaks and troughs.

You'll have periods when everything turns to shit and when you think it can't possibly get any worse - it does.

Then you'll get periods when things turn out better and life's on the upswing for a while.

You just have to keep wading through the crap times until the wheel turns again.

I've learned in my 65+ years that nothing - bad or good - lasts forever.

Your Good Times are coming.

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way.

Tell us about your circumstances OP. Partner? Kids ages? Do you have a job/what's your educational background?

Is it more recently things felt this hard, did something change?

Agree with PP, life is full of peaks and troughs

My advice is (1) be grateful when things are going well and enjoy it, (2) when life is tough, accept it, but remember it won't be like this for ever

I agree with this person, your mental state is tough to change but trying to be grateful for whats good might help you see the small specks of good in your life.

Its something I struggle with too.

I hate to ask as I don't know your circumstances but could you ask your family for money for some basics? If it is only pride holding you back this might be the best option (I do understand having no-one to ask as I am NC with my parents so feel free to ignore this suggestion).
You haven't failed your children at all, you are working hard trying to provide for them. Sometimes with the best will in the world we can't work our way out of countrywide issues such as COL and we have to weather the storm as best we can.
Speak to citizens advice if possible, if you have any debts or loans etc they might be able to help you to reduce the payments.
If you are struggling with your mental health make an appointment with your GP to see what help they can offer you, you need to keep on top of it or you will burn out and be unable to work and it will become part of the cycle of things getting worse for you.
Short term, can you book a couple of days off work (or call in sick?) Sometimes a rest can be enough to clear your mind and give you the energy to keep ploughing on. Do something nice for yourself for a couple of days (very cheap things like a long hot bath or a film with a nice hot drink etc).
Fingers crossed things get better for you soon 💐

Financially your situation should improve as young children get older - once they're at school full time you won't be paying out for childcare any more but I think life is a slog for so many people now and looking back at the life my parents had from the 50's on makes me want to weep.

You haven't given any practical details so I take your post as a 'how can I get my head round it' one and, when I'm really down, I've found that finding something positive each day helps reset my spirits. Could just be the sun shining or a bird singing - I make a point of looking for these moments and banking them. I'm so sorry you feel that your future is bleak but take it a day at a time and try and look for glimmers of hope. Good luck x

@OmegaAve actually, that's not quite what I meant

Yes, it's helpful if you can be thankful for the small things

But, when things are really, really tough, I think it's ok to acknowledge that it's shit, may remain shit for a while, accept that, and ride out the storm

Thank you

I work in an asylum seeker charity supporting trafficking and modern slavery victims, my partner is self employed (hes work is the main issue) and we have a 2 year old & a 3 year old.

He had a business with his dad, who went to prison for sexual assault of minors, he did all the business side and my partner the physical side, he left us with many debts, a lawsuit and 10k debt.

I also need to be driving, and there is things we need and everything is just working against us constantly its bad news every other week, and im of course taking the full mental load.