To be struggling with my child starting school

[middleagedandinarage]

My eldest has just started school, P1 (Scotland) She's 5.5, could of gone last year but she's a winter baby so decided to deffer. She was more than ready, seems to be enjoying it, no issues. I however am really feeling it, the emotional side of my baby starting school, probably doesn't help I've just stopped breastfeeding my youngest so feeling very much like my baby stage is suddenly over. The week feels totally different, I worked 3 days already, this hasn't changed so I technically have more free time because now have 2 days with only 1 child rather than 2 but it just feels a lot more structured and grown up 🙈 I know that sounds silly! I take my youngest to a class one morning which is nice being able to do something just with them but i feel bad doing other fun stuff while my eldest is at school. I'm keeping busy and feeling like I need to achieve lots in my days while she's at school and I'm at home and I miss her. God knows how I'll cope when my youngest starts or when they leave home!
Anyone else felt like this? I guess it will pass but I've been so excited about her starting school, did not expect to feel like this

Thanks for all the replies, nice to hear others have felt the same.
I'm absolutely not considering home schooling, not saying it isn't right for some kids. DD is enjoying school, it's a lovely smallish school and I have no doubt she'll do well there. She loves the social aspect as well. I have not shown her how I'm feeling, I'm keeping it all very positive and exciting (while I cry into my coffee after drop off haha)
*@doodleschnoodle so true, I need to make the most of the time with DD2
*@Delurking That's lovely to hear, yes she's really enjoying it and I'm so proud of how well she's settled in.
*@Wishingplenty thank you! Absolutely, so glad I deffered. It's been the best thing for her. She was more than ready for school and has settled in so easily. Even from the tiredness point of view, I hear some of the other mums saying how emotional and over tired their kids have been where DD really hasn't been too bad, I definitely i think it's with her just being that little bit older.

*@wasitamistake Really sorry to hear this, must be so tough. Honestly, deffering was the best thing for my DD. As much as I'm finding her starting school hard she was so ready and sailed through settling in. If it's an option for you, I would pull her out and put her back to nursery for another year. It's a big step for them!

I felt bad doing fun things with my youngest while my eldest were in school, especially thing I knew they would enjoy too.
But my friend reframed it for me, that I had time with the older children on their own before their sibling was born and I don't feel guilty that my youngest wasn't there to enjoy it. My youngest is never going to have that experience so I sort of owe them that 1 on 1 time when their siblings are in school to spend just with them .
It helped me feel better about it, and knowing that school is fun too and they are having a good time there.

When they stop needing you! Trust me they’ll let you know!!