Terrified to know

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I know that I won't know until I do a test but I am terrified that I may be pregnant.

My ex of 9 years and I split up over a year ago, I have 2 sons already, one from a previous relationship and one to my ex. I had accepted the fact that I would not have anymore children as i am now single and not wanting to meet anyone. My ex and I had a rocky relationship in the last couple of years and it took a lot to end it but we now get on very well and still do a lot together with the kids, we both said that one day we might end up back together but he had a lot of healing to do and work on himself..Anyway 3 weeks ago after a couple of drinks I ended up sleeping with him, he pulled out (sorry tmi) and that was that. Today I was sat in a meeting at work and felt really nauseous and I noticed yesterday that I could really notice everyones perfume which I can't say i have noticed before. Then it dawned on me that i had metallic taste over the last week and some lower back pain. With both of my pregnancies I knew straight away and this feels the same. I know how stupid I was not to use anything and not looking for a lecture but just terrified now. I always wanted a third but he didn't and obviously given the situation this would be a very hard thing to do. He really struggles with depression which is what he has been working on but this made him quite nasty in the relationship and was the reason I ended it. My family hate him and I feel so stupid and scared

I think you know you are pregnant. It's early days, you have choices.
I am sorry you are in the predicament

Please don't be scared or panic.

Take a test, go easy on yourself, give yourself a few days to think about what you want to do - you have options.

I agree with PP, thankfully in this country if you don’t want to be pregnant you have options. And it seems pretty clear you don’t want to be pregnant?

At 3 weeks it’s probably too early to show on a test, wait a week or two, do a test and then if it’s positive look at your choices.

And don’t feel guilt, it was a mistake you both made, but it doesn’t have to dictate the rest of your life.

It's not so much that I wouldn't want another child, if the circumstances were different I would 100% welcome another. I think the scary thing is if i am i know this will cause huge issues not only with the ex but with my family too. I am thinking more along the lines that if i am would i be able to do this alone if the ex didn't want part of it. He works away anyway so mon-fri i do it all alone anyway. I just never expected to be in this position again and feel like a bloody fool

There's no use panicking before you've even confirmed if you're pregnant or not.
Take a test first and then write a list of all the pros and cons of having this child. Really sit and think about every possibility and then decide what you want to do.
I hope you get the result you want xx

Circumstances are pretty important though… it’s no small thing to have a baby as a single parent especially when you have 2 already and especially when you know the father doesn’t want it. Lots of people would have more children if circumstances were different but they don’t because circumstances are what they are.

Of course that is just my opinion and only you know the right answer for you and your family.

It must be scary but you need to take control here. Take a test, then you'll have choices to take if it's positive, if not then lesson learned about not using contraceptives when you have sex

Good luck