It's not weird at all.
You are allowed to grieve a part of you that is being taken away.
Our breasts are a huge part of our identity, the way we carry ourselves, wear clothes, experience intimacy etc
All of that is changing for you and that is going to be a huge adjustment and a process to come to terms with.
I know a gorgeous lady who had a double a few years ago and she really struggled with the idea, but is now thriving!
She even chose not to go for reconstruction after being convinced that she would.
She is cancer free now and just welcomed her first grandbaby.
You are allowed to be angry and rage at the world. So many people say you have to stay positive, but anger is a strong motivator and denying your emotions is (in my opinion) incredibly toxic.
You don't become superhuman just because you have cancer and the cancer doesn't take away your ability to have all sorts of emotions on many different levels.
I am sending you warm, healing vibes and my thoughts will be with you today.
You've got this!!!
And one day, you'll be out the other side and all of this will be over.
One day at a time, one hour at a time.
Conquer each part as it comes and don't forget to nourish yourself as a human and as a woman.