I am now 31. So this happened many years ago.
I was 14. I had an 19 year old boyfriend at the time. I remember being showered with presents, treated very well, but I also remember the forcing me to do certain activities. It lasted 6 months and I had a pregnancy scare at the end as he stopped using condoms (it turned out I had a miscarriage).
I was bought lingerie etc also during our relationship, and now that I am older, looking back, it sickens me.
My parents obviously found out when he dumped me and I took a complete breakdown and told them everything.
I went through 2 years of providing police statements abd evidence including at a sexual assault clinic which was traumatizing.
In the end, nothing came of it as the CPS missed a deadline to submit paperwork, and I was told that I would need to start all over again, which I wasnt prepared to do.
I still see this man as he lives locally. He has 3 kids now and one for them is a girl. He's married. He hasn't went without bad times either as he had a brain tumour at one stage.
But I still get a horrible, sickly feeling if I happen to see him in Tesco etc. I feel worried for a young daughter in his care, and possibly other young girls. I feel ashamed that I didnt see it through, at the time all those years ago.
As more time passes, I feel so angry that nobody knows, and he is seemingly a "normal member of society" that was or is a paedophile, depending on how you look at things.
Especially with the recent "stings" we see on social media, I wish these had existed back then.
AIBU to still have these feelings after all this time and was IBU for not going through it all again?
Hr had admitted everything to police and is was a cert for conviction, a paperwork error let it all down.