I feel low quite a lot. I function. I look after the dc, keep on top of housework and go to work everyday. But I am so lacking in motivation and never really feel content. Example - been on a great holiday recently, objectively enjoyed it and was all id hoped for but still couldn't relax or feel fully happy and kind of wanted to come home. Then got home and felt sad we were no longer there. Another example - bought a house I thought I loved, really excited and then moved in and just began to dislike it and dream of living somewhere else. These things probably make me sound spoilt and ungrateful but it's not that. It's just a general feeling of discontentment. Like I wouldn't be happy anywhere.
I don't think I'm in the best health. I don't eat well. I'm overweight and I probably drink too much. I don't get enough sleep as one of my dc is a terrible sleeper. I'm aware all of these things will impact my mood. Also notice mega lows at certain times in my cycle so maybe it's that too.
I just sometimes feel so vacant and have a can't be arsed mentality with life. I feel like I'm not a good enough mum or wife. I feel lazy and useless.