I'm a natural born worrier, it's in my DNA. I always think the worst, I am currently being seen for anxiety with therapy because:
My son was born at 34 weeks and was in NICU for his lungs.
Since being at home we've had no end of issues with his feeding, coughing, choking, turning blue - we took him to a&e were he had an X-ray, we waited 8 hours for the results to be told 'lungs are clear, no aspiration- good to go home'
I still wasn't happy to asked the HV to refer to a swallow specialist, which they did- I have seen them twice and talk to them over the phone regularly, they diagnosed him with reflux and gave thicker milk.
He took this but then didn't up his milk, so he plateaued. We asked for advice so we got given normal milk and then scoops of thickener we can adjust which worked.
But his pools were still water & he was still some what uncomfortable on the bottle, I had to push for the GP to prescibe CMPA milk, eventually they did as a paediatrician agreed via the phone - but my son won't take it, we've tried everything.
He's now dropped 2.5 centiles, I log every bottle he has, I've tried so much - he's now been referred to a dietician.
I'm so scared they'll think I'm incapable of care and they'll take him off me, it may be an intrusive thought but it's my biggest fear, I want nothing but the best for him and I feel I'm trying to help his feeding / weight gain but I'm getting dead ends.
He is gaining, just slowly and he is very happy, energetic little boy! He's now 3 months corrected (4 months officially )