To just not know what to do

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I am really struggling with work. I have recently been diagnosed with PTSD due to a medically unexplained health condition.

I am behind with work as I have been struggling . I am in a temporary post for 18 months due to end soon and have not been told if it will continue despite me asking. I have had meetings for this post and the boss scheduled for the next year so assuming it is continuing.

I think I know I am not well enough for work and have been limping through the last couple of months. I am scared that I am on a ‘trigger’ already due to Heath condition despite occupational health saying that triggers should be adjusted.
I am scared I will be kicked out of the temporary post even though my substantive post has been filled. I am scared that my health condition will not improve. I am a single parent to teens so everyone relies on me.

The wait for PTSD treatment is 6 months. I am exhausted and tearful every day and just scared.

WWYD ? Do I take a couple of weeks sick or not ?

Ironically I am a health professional so know what advice I would give to a patient. Sick pay etc is good due to NHS but I just feel I am failing everything.

You really need to focus on you, if you are going to stand a chance of getting better. Take some sick leave. Legally they would have to give you your substantive post back, if this one doesn't work out, unless there is grounds for dismissal. PTSD can be classified as a disabilty which also gives you some protection under employment law.

I’m sorry you are going through this. I think you should take the time off work as sick whilst you are not well enough to do your job.

Are you in a union? Can you get some advice and support from a rep?

Thank you. My ‘unexplained condition’ is covered under the equality act so I know they can’t sack me unless I can’t return to work and they medically retire me. I am 48 so am no where near retirement with dependents.
it consists of life threatening medical episodes which are unpredictable and no apparent cause so I am physically well enough for work unless having an acute episode. I am just struggling with coping with this as it is so very stressful.

Sounds like you are burning out and your health is at risk.

Do you have any leave to take if you don’t want to take sick leave ?