Dreading end of maternity leave

[Sundayschool]

My baby is 14 weeks old, I’m returning to work at the end of January and I’m already dreading it! I wasn’t sure if I would enjoy mat leave but I love spending time with my baby and also I’m really relishing the lack of deadlines/pressure/work related stress. I worry a lot over my career and progression and it’s so nice to take some time out from these thoughts which I can find overwhelming.

However thinking about going back to work has started ruining my maternity leave. I’m constantly counting down the time remaining in my head, thinking how fast the last 14 weeks have gone and worrying it will soon be over. Now I’m seeing Halloween and Christmas items in the shops it feels more real.

AIBU to feel this way and how can I stay more present ‘in the moment’? I really don’t want these thoughts to ruin the rest of my leave.

Going back later or part time isn’t an option for us financially.

You might find you are ready to go back by January. It’s still a long way away. I loved maternity leave and didn’t think I’d ever want to go back but have been surprised to find I
enjoy the balance of work and parenting.

That ridiculous that you have seen Christmas items in shops in August!

You need to find ways to interrupt yourself when you start having these thoughts. It sounds like you're getting yourself stuck in a loop and that's not helpful.

YANBU but you clearly are dealing with a range of emotions and have just had a baby. Are you able to attempt mindfulness? This can be really helpful with dealing in the moment. Are you getting any support/company from parent hubs/groups etc. Having a new baby is an overwhelming experience.
Take care OP