I’m finding it so hard to leave 4 year relationship

[YourTealMaker]

Hi, I am currently in a very very violent and toxic relationship, this man has done it all, bites my face my body my arms, strangled me, hits me with things ect….

i really do not want to be with him but when I try to leave I find it so so so hard and I don’t know why. I stop eating I can’t think I can’t sleep and honestly I just feel like my world has in fact ended.

he constantly flirts with girls in front of me / my friends he has been adding & messaging girls and looking at there profiles on social media. I feel so disrespected but yet I still can’t leave ?
I just can not imagine life without him.

he told me he cheated because he doesn’t love me and that he hates me

i really don’t know what to do any more I’m so fed up off feeling upset

https://www.nationaldahelpline.org.uk/#:~:text=Call%20us%2024%2F7&text=Call%20for%20free%20and%20in,a%20day%3A%200808%202000%20247.

please call this line they will give real advice

all the best OP.

Call Women's Aid for actionable advice.

Do the Freedom Programme.

Read Why Does He Do That by Lundy Bancroft. There is a free pdf online.

It's for a few reasons mainly trauma bonding secondly because the relationship is all consuming and can become addictive. When you leave life suddenly feels very empty and you crave the rollercoaster of the relationship.

He's going to either kill you or do some serious damage so I would get away and get some trauma counselling to deal with those feelings.

What's your situation like? Do you have money? Anywhere to go?