Intrusive thoughts?

[Joreu]

Hello,

After some advice as it's driving me crazy. I will be booking a GP appointment but I can't go for another 2 weeks so just after some advice with coping with OCD and intrusive thoughts.

I am 29 years old and I've always been naturally anxious but recently this has turned into showing via OCD and intrusive thoughts.

I constantly have thoughts that I am going to lose my job and it keeps me up at night even though nothing has even happened to make me think this.

I forgot my email to a website the other day and I am trying to get it back via their recovery system as I can't log in and my brain keeps telling me that this person is going to read all my personal messages and I am overthinking what messages were on there whilst they recover my account.
They are very slow at replying and now it's the weekend which is sending my brain into overdrive.

When driving, I constantly have thoughts about whether I've accidentally knocked somebody over (even when I haven't even seen anybody) this causes me to drive back round to double check nobody has been hurt.

It just feels my brain is constantly making up scenarios which is causing me panic.

What worries me more is i do have a couple of family members who were diagnosed with bipolar in their late 20s and then eventually diagnosed with psychosis.
I keep thinking is this the onset of me having psychosis as it runs in the family - but this is once again probably my brain overthinking.

Advice with dealing with this please! As I have a constant tight chest and my brain constantly makes up scenarios about how I am going to lose my job and be in trouble with the law etc.

Also, when recovering the account, they obviously asked questions to help prove it is actually my account and now my brain keeps telling me that I've given them too much information about myself and they will be looking me up on social media to which I've even now deactivated some of my social media. I don't even know why my brain does this as I have hardly a digital footprint anyway - I only have 2 forms of social media so they wouldn't even find out anything about me even if they wanted to do (for whatever reason). But I don't understand why my brain does this :(

Sorry to hear you’re going through this, it’s tough.

Do see your GP - they can refer you for talking therapies which is very effective for OCD, or you may be able to self refer depending on area.

SSRIs very effective.

They can assess your risk for developing Bipolar too and hopefully reassure you.

In the meantime OCD UK is an excellent source of info.

Best of luck, OCD is very treatable with the right support.

I think that's paranoia rather than OCD. What do you think ?

These are typical OCD symptoms.You can start helping yourself straight away by reading up on OCD on sites such as OCD action. There are,also a lot of resources on you tube for mindfulness for OCD.

@Joreu I have bi polar disorder with PTSD, anxiety and OCD, and I keep a daily diary to track how I'm doing.

If I had written this;
now my brain keeps telling me that I've given them too much information about myself and they will be looking me up on social media to which I've even now deactivated some of my social media.

I would recognise the behaviour as a sign my OCD is so bad I need help sooner rather than later. (the feeling that 'if I dont do X, something bad will happen.)

If I was your friend, I would suggest you phone 111 and ask for advice. I don't think that waiting two weeks to see your GP is the best thing to do, as you haven't been taught any coping skills and you don't have the right kind of support.

They might suggest you talk to the local Crisis team, or start anti anxiety meds or anti depressants. You might not feel like you are depressed, but try the meds anyway. Untreated anxiety is horrible to live with, and can make you feel very ill.