I'm 25 and still living at home with my mom (can't afford to move out, just been made redundant too, struggling to get a new job before anyone suggests moving).
I was in hospital a few months ago and extremely unwell. Since then, I feel like my mom has almost glued herself to me and I feel like I can't get any space. I find myself feeling intense anger and frustration as I'm feeling quite suffocated and I think my mom is picking up on it. She's been making a few comments "you never want to do anything with me anymore" or "you don't love me". I just need space.
We recently went to a relatives house for dinner, I set mine and my mom's place opposite eachother and she moves it right next to me instead, then after dinner we move to the living room. I decide to sit on the floor so my mom could have the last space on the sofa and so that I could have some physical space, but instead, she sits right next to me on the floor.
When I was working from home, she'd come into my work space and try to have full-on conversations with me whilst I was working.
I go for walks to try and get to peace and quiet but my mom always calls me when I'm out. If my mom goes out I get at least 3 or more phone calls from her. Any time she hears me move from one room to the other she'll immediately ask "what are you doing?" or if we're in the living room together and I get up to do something she'll immediately ask "where are you going?".
I'm finding it exhausting and I'm not sure what to do. When she talks to me I find it hard to sound interested as I just want to sit quietly sometimes.
How do I get rid of these feelings? I do feel really guilty about it but I'm not sure how to manage, and I've felt this way for a few months now.