Really starting to think I have this and it’s absolutely horrendous. One minute I’m fine, the next I’m absolutely raging and can feel it physically all over my body. I feel like I want to pummel people around me and scream so much. My back story is I was on escitalopram for about 9 years (for depression and anxiety) and decided to wean myself off them. Ive been doing really well-mood wise feeling great but when due on my period I will be very emotional -crying at everything, but actually feeling ok if that makes sense. So I just accepted this is how I am until my hormones have calmed down and it’s tolerable. I’ve always had bad pmt and raged at times but I feel it’s got worse and it’s lasting a whole sodding week-some days raging then I’ll calm and then raging again. I need some help-my children have already had a lot to deal with in their lives-but they often don’t know what mood I’m going to be in and that is just awful.
I’d been fine all day today (little bit irritated this morning) but this evening I just blew up. Luckily my children were mostly unaware and didn’t see me losing my shit in the kitchen by myself 🙈 but the rage I felt was ridiculous. It eventually eased and find all evening but now in bed I can feel my irritation levels going up.
I’m single mum to two children-one an autistic son and a full time carer to him and my mum too. I have a lot of stress. I am a runner to help with my mental health (which helps hugely and i love it) and I eat mostly healthy plus no drugs, no drink no smoking. I’m almost 40 and wonder if I’m peri (my mum started peri mid 30s) any advice? I ideally don’t want to go back on antidepressants but I know something needs to change. It’s so frustrating because I know once my period finally arrives/just after I’m back to my normal self…but then the cycle starts again 🙈 Sorry for the ramblings.