I'll preface this saying I am was by nature a bubbly chatty person. I love to have a good natter, or to share something I find funny, or to make people laugh. I'm popular with the clients at work (I work in a care role) as far as I can tell, most colleagues too.
Two people close to me said something that's just broken me. Really, broken. As in I'm now unable to chat. My 'natter' just doesn't work anymore.
My chest has a constant pain in it and I feel so damn sad. I don't want to talk. I have no words to say now. They're gone. I don't feel thrilled when my teens tell me something great. I just say, "oh. Okay". Or "that's nice".
As you can probably guess, it was two family members being less than nice and smirking about me telling them something I'd found interesting/funny. It just stopped me in my tracks and I had to leave to find a chore to do or something.
I genuinely feel like I'm being silly and being a sulky cow but I don't mean to. I don't want to be. I just have a constant painful ache in my chest and I don't want to talk. I can't bring myself to strike up conversation or even reply more than a word or two.
I feel like everyone is sick of me and don't want to hear what I have to say.
What can I do? It's been over a week. My son, 12, (who also joined in a bit of the meanness too) has noticed and is trying to strike up conversations and has even apologised so he's well aware of what's taken my voice. I feel even worse now that I can't fake it for him.
Any advice? Aibu to feel this way?