Dh has been working LOADS recently, i know hes only doing it to pay for our couch (which have to pay for by july or it will be financed) Im so fed up with things, i feel almost worthless, all i do is keep the hosue clean and look after 2 demanding kids, every day i get up and look around at the huge pile of jobs i have to do and to be perfectly honesti just cant be bothered anymore, i feel so downtrodden (gawd i can almost hear the violins )
I dont get to do anything exciting and i dont get a minute to myself. I was looking on facebook today, well looking at friends profiles really, and i am ashamed to admit i felt a bit at all they have achieved. Yes i know i chose to have kids early and i do have my 2nd (and last) child starting school in september so maybe doors will open for me then?
Thing is though, i almost resent DH for going off and working all the time, cant believe im going to admit this, but this is how twisted and bitter i am, i really hate it when he has his apprentices working with him coz he comes home telling me how much of a laugh he had and i hate it, i suppose your all gonna think im a weirdo now (u wouldnt be wrong ) Its not that i dont want DH to have fun, but i dont see why i should spend my days struggling when hes having fun IYSWIM?
So am i a cow? Should mention DH doesnt do anything away from home, when hes not working hes with me, reading this back i can see IAB totally U but i cant help the way i feel