Depression - tell me something funny?

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Read here a lot, rarely post. Sorry for posting here for traffic - just need some help.

I struggle with depression and anxiety and adhd (what a catch I know).Have done for over twenty years.

I’m usually good at noticing the warning signs but recently I pushed myself too far, burnt out and now depression has reared its ugly head again and it’s just so hard, this time.

I feel so sad and lost everyday and feel like I’m crawling through the day. Existing but not living.
The only release is when I get into bed at night and today is “done”.

I’m trying to be kind to myself - my schedule is now lighter so I’m less stretched. Got a motivation app where you play with a little character and every time you check something off the list “took a shower” “did the laundry” you earn points and can dress them up 😆
Historically I know I always “come back up” and it’s been a while since I’ve had such a down time.

But each time feels like “this is the one that’s going to get me. This episode won’t end”.

But I just need something. Anything. Did your toddler poop their pants in the supermarket?
Say anything funny? Fart in an important meeting? Anything that might make me laugh right now?

Just any funny anecdote you can think of 🙏

Now to put on my smiley face for work.

Agh I don't have anything funny (how?!) but this too shall pass. Similarly to you I have had periods of depression - the longest one lasted a long time. It passed. Just one more step / one more minute.

Actually one funny thing. My toddler came running I. The room shouting what sound like BUGGER BUGGER. After a mild heart attack realised she was trying to say bumper )her speech isn't very clear).

Sending love and fake smiles for work

Have you see that video of the little Aussie kid seeing a goat outside?? Look that up. ‘ It’s a fucking goat!’

I'm not very good at humour, but this morning I remembered something that happened to me a few years ago.

Was at a friend's wedding reception and was just reminding myself to smile and look cheerful as I joined the group downstairs (had some worries I was trying to forget), when I suddenly tripped at the top of the stairs. I did this weird thing where my arms were flailing and I leaned back a bit and basically surfed down the stairs in front of everyone. I ended up on my butt looking up at the confused faces around me. I was mortified but thankfully I just tried to laugh it out whilst wincing in pain. Couldn't look anyone in the eye after that!

Op your post really reminds me of how I was when I was depressed. I tried so hard to feel happy but I just couldn't. In the end it was anti depressants that made me feel like myself again. Have you thought about seeing a GP?

You sound like you're doing an amazing job of looking after yourself and looking out for the signs.

I was running an online relaxation session and had my best soothing, slow voice on. Everyone had turned their cameras off but one of the participants had forgotten to mute themselves. And let rip with the LOUDEST fart. It took everything I had to keep going with my slow soothing script and not collapse into fits of giggles.

Did you know Teslas have a fart function? So immature but so funny.

Thank you all. I might be awful at replying cuz on survival mode right now but I do appreciate it all.
especially fart stories @PandyMoanyMum thank you for the Tesla video @LongLostSock

@rinseandrepeat1
yeah im on 100mg sertraline right now and can’t go any higher (living in Japan and that’s the highest dose).
the down episodes are definitely less but the medication isn’t foolproof against burn out and outside pressure. DH is a wonderful man but is horrendously overworked and just about able to keep going right now.

DS4 is an absolutely sweetheart but kids are kids - and the best behaved in the world can still be a challenge sometimes.