Posting on AIBU for traffic but I guess there is one in it.
I'm on the two week pathway for investigations for bowel cancer.
I'm not even 40 yet, young kids. I'm surrounded by cancer at the moment. Two bereavements this year, one imminent. It doesn't seem all that unlikely for me - I guess I'll know next week.
One thing I thought of immediately - what happens to my August holiday if I get diagnosed with cancer? Do I ring the insurers? Can I still go? It's abroad for two weeks. Do I need to cancel? The kids will be gutted. We don't get away much and we've been looking forward to this for 18 months.
Half of me thinking, if I questioned these symptoms a couple of weeks later I would be in blissful ignorance.
Of course - I naturally had the initial panic attack of oh my god I might actually die and leave my children motherless. But it's so final I can't actually fathom/wrap my head around it. Yet.
AIBU in worrying about the holiday I guess. Knee jerk reaction but I'm spiralling a little bit.