Feel like I’m going out of my mind without him to message and talk to… not DC’s father, but my first relationship a few years after we broke up. We had two years on and off but his mental health was all over the place so I couldn’t risk moving forward with a life together when he’d frequently go off the deep end in unwarranted jealously etc. Basically, we both dragged it our way too long but this is the end.
But now I feel like my arm has been cut off without him being there. I need to stay strong this time, but have little support or friends to help. Am glued to mumsnet lately to fill some sort of void.
Help! Do I feel like this because I’m co-dependent? Got used to the cortisol/adrenaline rush of our mad dynamics?
What do I do to look after me? I dedicate myself to DC and can’t think beyond that…