Is this being toxic?

[Firsttimemummy23]

Hi guys and girls,

I wanted some honest advice but too honest where I cry into pillow as I have been doing enough of that for the past two weeks lol.

I found out about two weeks I had some cysts on my ovary (my family seem to suffer this and it made my mum go into menopause at age 30) however the doctor which granted ignored my symptoms for two years has now told me they are doing a blood test for the big C (I can't write it or say it)and my mind has gone to the worst case of what if it's. I have a 2 and half year old little girl and I'm terrified for her

My husband family haven't always been the nicest to me to be honest however I didn't want to be one of those daughters in law where she divided the family so kinda keep my nose down.

His mother would like to book a holiday next year within the first three months.. my husband said we might come and she got really naggy about it and was really dismissal of the fact that I can't obvious predict the future and almost seemed annoyed that I am such an inconvenient and there was a lot said which started to cause me to almost back out of the convo but she was like "if this wasn't an issue would you come?" "Come by YOUrself" "I can't even tell people why you said this" there was a lot worst. Also I don't want people knowing my business either it's alot for me to process never mind telling others.

I am generally so scared, I have never been so scared in my life as I am right now however some of the comments I have realised now that we will never have a nice relationship.

Am I being unreasonable by not wanting to make future plans?

I have had that blood test more times than I can count because they like to do it straight away to rule things out. It DOES NOT mean you are going to have cancer xxx

You're not being unreasonable.
I had an ovarian cancer scare 2 years ago. There was a 3.5cm complex cyst on one of my ovaries and I am high risk as a triple negative breast cancer survivor.
I was waiting for 6 weeks for an MRI and it was torture. I was a wreck. I thought about it all the time, couldn't sleep without sleeping pills, struggled to focus on my job.
I'm so sorry you're going through this. Be kind to yourself. Get through the days as best you can.
Ignore your MIL if you can. It doesn't sound like a holiday with her would be very enjoyable, anyway.

I didn't have ovarian cancer, by the way. Cysts appear on ovaries every month. Sometimes they swell up and cause problems. Sometimes they go away on their own.