I was chatting with my mum this evening while we were driving home, I was chatting about the gym tomorrow. She said to me ‘I noticed yesterday you’re starting to look a bit muscly, I don’t like it, it doesn’t look very nice’
I just brushed it off at the time but now thinking about it, I’ve had an eating disorder for the last 2 years, she has been the only person I’ve confided in about it. I feel like I’m just coming out of it and I’m not underweight anymore, working out regularly so I feel I can eat. It was really insensitive and triggering, now I can’t stop thinking/checking to make sure I’m not bigger than I was.
Would you bring this up again or would you just ignore it and try to move on?