To suddenly feel lost and without focus?

[illkeepthisone]

I returned to work last week after a year on maternity leave. I (obviously) am not feeling part of things at work (not sure I ever will!) but I do know it’s normal it doesn’t feel very normal just yet. However I’m not really enjoying my days with my children either (I work three days a week) - it feels like a huge chore and rather than feeling relief at the thought of being a SAHM it fills me with dread; I don’t think I could do maternity leave again even though I loved it … I don’t know what I’m asking really. I don’t seem to be enjoying my time with my children or my job much and I feel a bit as if I’ve lost myself

It's early days OP! You only went back to work a week ago. Give yourself time to adapt to the transition. I think you just need to get used to the new routine/

Thanks for a kind response. I feel so down and it’s hard to pinpoint why: don’t mind work, don’t exactly enjoy my days ‘off’ but recognise I’m lucky to have them!