To be so nervous about my flight?

[FlightTomorrow]

I’ve name changed but been here for fuck all ever (I’m not going cite a bunch of old, popular threads anyone could Google).

It’s the middle of the night, I absolutely need rest for my flight tomorrow, but I can’t sleep, because I’m too nervous about traveling tomorrow. Why do I do this?!? It almost guaranteed that it will be harder. It’s just difficult, because I’m disabled and getting so much weaker and now I’ve got a bit of a wonky arm (temporary, I hope) so it’s even more difficult than normal. My doctors have been so great about getting me ready, my chemist has been wonderful, I’ll have a friend waiting for me right outside the gate in the other side. The flight is short, I’m going somewhere I love, to see a friend I dearly love. I’m just so scared of the traveling wearing me out to a scary level. I know I need to just let them help me as much as possible.

So why do I feel like I’m about to have an anxiety attack at 2 in the morning?

Am I being unreasonable? Am I the only one? Does anyone else have this happen? Maybe not the disability (or maybe), but I’ve always felt a bit like this - I want to go, I wish I were already there, but the thought of the travel, even if it’s just an airport and two-hour plane ride, makes me feel a bit unwell, even though I’m not scared of flying?

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I'm with you all the way on this .I have child with SEN, I have terrible anxiety generally. The first time I flew was as a parent , I thought I was coming down with a virus and almost cancelled a long awaited family holiday. I flew in the end though and once I was up in the air all the symptoms disappeared. Sleep if you can on the plane . Once you have cleared customs you will be shattered but jubilant.
I can't say it gets easier for me personally but wanting my family to have the best memories has forced me to travel haul all too

It is just how anxiety works.
Maybe accepting that you are anxious and will be so until the plane leaves might help.
A "this is a strong and difficult feeling but it is going to pass"
Don't stress about feeling anxious or not sleeping, you can manage fine on one night of reduced sleep.
Ideal no, survivable yes.
Enjoy your break when you get to it.

@Keepingtomyself I understand completely! I’m glad I know it’s just me being anxious. I can imagine it must have felt awful if you thought it was a virus; it’s so weird how these things can feel. And I’m so glad it cleared up in the air for you! I hope that’s how it’ll be for me.

@siameselife Yes, I know you’re absolutely right. That’s my problem, I think. I’m nervous because I’ve gotten so much weaker, so a night without sleep and stress is definitely survivable, you’re right, but I don’t know if I’m going to have a flare from my disease afterwards and be slurring my speech or stuck in bed for a week. I just feel uncertain. Maybe this does highlight that it’s a “specific” thing? Because I’m not scared of traveling or flying, but I feel like with my disability, I can’t control anything and I don’t know what my body is going to do. It might be totally fine or it might be a hot mess.

Good luck on the flight today

@CoralReader Thanks!!! To be honest, I tried to take the good advice given but I’m still bricking it.