Hi, I could do with some opinions as I’m going round in circles and can’t decide.
I have recently been going through a terrible time. Stress at work led to illness and I’ve since found out I may have a long term disability (it doesn’t affect my ability to work but does affect day to day activities). My company’s response was to tell me they were putting me through a process (all very vague related to my illness) and threaten me with being fired. When I pushed back my LM started to bully me horribly. Anyway, I’ve gone from being really confident and doing great in my job to my confidence being rock bottom in just a few months! The whole thing has really shaken me.
My MH is not good currently (extremely anxious, trouble sleeping and feeling terrible) and having gone from what I thought was a very secure job to this, I’m so worried about job security in the future.
I have decided to leave and have been applying for roles like mad. I now have two offers to consider. Both similar salaries and benefits.
The first is for a company that is similar to my current one, but the department is smaller and my colleagues would be less experienced. I currently do billed work and I’m starting to think I’m getting a bit sick of it - this role would also be billable work. However, the work is so similar to what I do now that I could just step in to it with no problems (hopefully). My partner thinks I’ll be bored after 6 months and keeps pointing out that there’s no guarantee it will be stress free.
The second is a great company that I have some experience with. The people and culture seem lovely but the role is a step up. Not billable work but managing companies who bill like my current company (sorry if this is confusing, I’m trying to not reveal too much). It uses a lot of my current experience but there’s a lot to learn. I tried to make it really clear in the interviews that I have some experience in this other area but it was a while ago and there’s a lot I need to pick up- (and it’s a very technical role)- I’m not sure they really took this in (despite me repeating this). I was told I must be an expert with my previous experience. They did say there would be opportunities to learn but said I would need to start answering queries within my first couple of weeks as they were building up.
I would have three months of not working before starting so some time to read up beforehand.
I don’t know what to do. I have children and earn a good salary and had thought I had reached a point where I was content and wasn’t too worried about promotions and working my way up the ladder but this second job has caught my eye but I’m so worried in case I’m a disappointment and get fired (I would be devastated). My MH is awful right now and I think if I take the first I’ll feel like I’m settling and have turned down a great role (although I’ll still be well paid) but if I take the second the panic will set in. I have to make a decision in the next week.
What would you do?