To really struggle to work at the moment

[SunshineOceanAndOranges]

This is more of a vent and asking for support than an AIBU as such... I've been working in a middle management role for the last 3 years for a company based abroad (this is relevant as I don't think they really know UK laws and regulations). Over the time I was there, other managers left and I got to pick up more and more of their duties. I did get a raise but the issue has been the sheer amount of work - it's just not tenable. Nevertheless, I soldiered on and on... whilst my boss has also been interfering within what I perceived to be my legitimate remit (which was never really fully clarified, more of a 'here's more work, there you go' situation). Anyway, many long days and work trips later, I got pulled last week into an online meeting in which I was informed my contract would be 'terminated' next month. I had no prior warning, and my appraisals and performance have always been good. They've assured me they want to have a chat about the terms of my departure but as of today I have nothing. In the meantime, work commitments (client facing) haven't gone away. I woke up this morning literally unable to get dressed or write a single email. I feel awful. I had to contact a client who was expecting me today to postpone the meeting. I've never felt anything like this in many years of work. I feel literally like the air has been pulled out of my lungs and I'm made of jello. I'm also aware that now is not the time to crash. Not sure what I can do to avoid this though as my physical symptoms are so strong.

Couldn't read and run - I've an HR background OP. Please go and get legal advice, you have over 3 years' service so can claim unfair dismissal, especially if this is so out of the blue, you have had no prior warning of poor performance etc.,. Are you being dismissed due to redundancy? Is it just you who is leaving? What rationale have they given you? I would also recommend that you try and mentally detach from the organisation, hard I know when you have been so hard working and loyal but at the end of the day you need to think of yourself first!! ...so get your CV updated, update LinkedIn, put out feelers for contacts who may be looking to hire, look for role online. And also please seriously consider going to your GP and getting signed off work, to me how you are describing how you're feeling today is classic stress. (Been there, got the t-shirt) Your number1 priority now is you, NOT the organisation/clients. Take care

Thank you so much @blinglover The worse thing is not knowing AT ALL whether it is redundancy or dismissal (which frankly could only be unfair). I have a team here in the UK and I do worry about what the plan is regarding them. I've had no written communication yet. I have my suspicions - none of them good. Of course, I am getting legal advice and going to the GP as well. I just worry that I'll give them 'reasons' by no longer performing as it's been so brutal and I feel like they're all living in an alternative universe in which I am still expected to join meetings as if nothing had happened and even go on a work trip next week. Yet my HR profile in the company's central portal has already been deactivated. Utterly disorienting.