Me and husband separated 6 months ago and first 6 months I was happy and relieved but now I cry everyday whenever thinking that one day I might be in a relationship and it's not with him.
I think of all the good times and I feel so sad that this couldn't be saved.
I feel very unreasonable because my marriage was not good.
There have been 4 instances of physical abuse (one of them while I was with covid),there has been neglect ,Verbal abuse ,belittling me ,emotional abuse ,talking to other women online and yet I stay here crying and thinking this is all my fault and maybe if I was not so annoying and nagging he wouldn't have been abusive.
Maybe if I worked more on my appearance he wouldn't look at other women And so on.
He says it was reactive abuse because I wouldn't give him the peace he deserved and I wonder sometimes if I was the abuser or if I turned him into one.