As the title suggests really. I think I’m just not coping well with “normal” life and looking for a bit of encouragement. DH is away with work at the minute, has been since Wednesday, due back Monday eve. We have a 5 month old DD and dog. Currently on mat leave so trying to do little bits to get me out the house. I have always struggled with being on my own and felt low when DH is away. So I’ve learned to make sure I have plans to get out and about for when he isn’t around.
Today DD and I have been shopping and to see a friend and it’s just got too much when I’ve got in - the house is a tip, coupled with the fact we had a blowout whilst out which I didn’t notice (felt like a rubbish mum then!) came home and the neighbour has been burning who knows what in his garden and the washing from the line stinks of smoke. There’s dog hair everywhere (have to hoover every day), stuff to put away from shopping, the weekly housework isn’t done. At least the dog has been for a walk - that’s more than I can say for yesterday. I’m aware all this is superficial but an untidy / unclean house really stresses me out!
This is the longest I’ve done solo with DD since she was born - only had 1 night on our own prior to this.
I’ve just got overwhelmed at the state of the house and how much there is to do and let DD see me cry, then had a cross word with DH on the phone who was making helpful suggestions (my response - I don’t need suggestions, I just need a break!). Can’t help but feel I am failing DD, I should be able to hold it together.