To think I may have OCD?

[SoreFeets]

So a few years ago (around the time of Covid starting) I began having awful intrusive thoughts. In hindsight I’ve always had them but this is when they became intense and distressing. Violent, cruel, sick thoughts. A way I’ve tried to deal with it is to counteract these horrible thoughts with nice thoughts.

Example - I’ll have an awful thought about my beloved dog. It makes me feel sick and guilty so I start to think about how loved she is, how her belly is full and she’s warm and loved etc

Another thing is skin picking. Specifically my feet. Today I card barely walk as I’ve picked my skin raw. I look like I’ve been sliced up with a knife but it’s just constant picking. If I feel a bit of hard skin I’ll pick at it until it comes off … even if hurts to pull it off, it must come off and then I can’t stop, I’ll pull more off and pick at my skin until another bit becomes “pullable”

I realised today how bad it is when I’m sat watching TV and I instinctively pull my sock off and start picking with no thought. I realised what I was doing and started to google it - that along with the horrible intrusive thoughts is screaming out OCD. Is it likely to get worse??

It does sound like ocd.
It's an anxiety related condition, look up the linden method :)
Feel for you op. I used to suffer this too 💐

Thank you, is there any point in going for a diagnosis? I’ve managed to not pick my feet today but I’ve literally had to stop myself several times

There is some really good help available for OCD these days. It's definitely worth getting a diagnosis and finding out what works for you. Left untreated, OCD can become debilitating, but therapy and medication have worked wonders for me and therapy on it's own made a huge impact on my DD's OCD.