Been with exDP for 8 years, 3 DC together.
We split 2 months ago but still living together while I look for somewhere else to live.
Mortgage is in his name only.
We're finally moving out next week!
He used to be very hard working, which I loved about him. Although was very controlling and a pain in the arse to live with.
I really did love him though.
Since late last year, he quit his job and spends all his time gaming. Thought he was going to make thousands from this but that's still not panned out.
I couldn't take being ignored anymore and doing all the kid stuff while he was spending every waking hour on his computer.
So we split, although he thinks this is my fault because I was always moaning at him. Not taking into account I was working full time and do absolutely everything in the house and with the DC. He did not lift a finger.
At this point I was heartbroken.
We tried again for a week and then he didn't speak to me for 2 days and then when I finally got it out of him what was wrong he said he was angry that I was being too tactile with him. Well I lost it and we didn't say a word to each other for a week. Things are better now and we are getting on well but I think after this anger at making me feel so disgusting I've just closed off completely.
Since then, he's completely stepped away from family life, we see him twice a day while he collects meals and back upstairs again.
Barely says 2 words to DC.
Not in any kind of way that he's moody or anything, he just has better things to do in his mind I guess.
I expect I should feel sad or something.. it's giving me more anxiety that I don't, I don't really feel anything. But he was the love of my life for many years, I just don't think he's the same person anymore.
I'm almost expecting to break down at some point once we've moved out.
Anyone had experience of this?
I don't know if I'm just numb right now or I am actually ok.