Posting here for traffic and also the brutal honesty, as I actually think I'm being unreasonable.
I left my previous job because it became very toxic and I knew that long term, I would have ended up being signed off for MH reasons. I was actually very chuffed when I landed my current the same I started looking for one. Role sounded exciting and was really looking forward to a fresh start.
I'm on week three and it has been a real rollercoaster of emotions. Some days I'm content and some days I actually feel depressed. I have been able to identify the main reasons:
We're a team of 5, and the rest of my colleagues were paired up and have VERY clear tasks.
I'm my own island figuring out what to do. This was actually part of the role so, in that way it isn't a surprise. However, my colleagues are focusing on very specific segments, and I'm not. In theory they gave me one, but it's a failing commercial offering that's been put on hold, and the scope of my role does affect bits of the workflows of the rest of the team (again by design).
I don't think that was necessarily clearly explained to them though. The other side of things is that half my colleagues are very young and inexperienced in comparison and having that pushback from them doesn't feel great. I do have double the experience of their combined one. So when I say something, I do know what I'm taking about.
Ironically I get fantastically well with senior management and the C Suite.
My manager has acknowledged most of this (I'm an apple and they're oranges). I even came up with more scope for my role so I can spin myself out of that team (so to speak). My manager originally gave some of those tasks to one of my colleagues (before I started) but it only makes sense it falls within my remit because I have years of experience in that particular area. My manager agreed BTW. I could also see that what she created didn't follow best practices at all, whatsoever, but I digress.
I still feel very much down about my role. It feels like I should be more senior, but at the same time I'm not. I do know I make more money than my colleagues, but I don't think that's the only way to find job satisfaction.
In words of my manager he's "very impressed" so I think it's definitely a ME problem, and just need to find the positives and and try to minimise the effect that this "lack of belonging" and "perception of seniority" have on me.